Jasper

speakercheck @ 2009-12-25T00:38:00

2009-12-24T16:38:07Z

Has there ever been times in your life when everything is going wrong? I believe the answer is a yes, definitely. That's when each and everyone of us are most prone to being convinced by the devil's lies - when everything seems to be going out of place. We'd look into the mirror and see an unworthy life. We'd compare ourselves with our friends, and say God is blessing them more than He is blessing us. We'd even sometimes say that God isn't real. These are the all lies of the devil.

In John 10:10, it says, ''The thief comes only to kill and steal and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.'' The devil wants to deceive each and everyone of us. He'd say, ''You're not worth it.'', ''You're stupid!'' or even ''You're insignificant and unimportant!'' But.. there's hope. Listen closely, God is saying, ''You are worth it, I bought you with a price!'', ''You're my beloved child!'' and ''You are my prized possession!'' All that matter is what God says because a word from God is more than sufficient to see us through our circumstances.

I was a sinner; now I'm a sinner saved. I was imperfect; now I'm beautifully imperfect. I am a beloved child of God.

And so are you. :)

speakercheck @ 2009-11-15T02:31:00

2009-11-14T18:31:03Z

An amazing song, with amazing lyrics, sung to an amazing God.

Hillsong - His Glory Appears

You gave me hope
You made me whole
At the cross
You took my place
You showed me grace
At the cross where You died for me

And His glory appears
Like the light from the sun
Age to age He shines
Look to the skies
Hear the angels cry
Singing Holy is the Lord

speakercheck @ 2009-11-11T23:45:00

2009-11-11T15:58:07Z

To those currently taking their A Levels (Especially Shi Yun and Amelia), listen to this song and let the words of the song sink in.
The Lord truly is your strength and your hope.

Hillsong United - You Are My Strength

You are my strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
Reaches to me

You are my hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace
In the power of Your Name
You lift me up
You lift me up

Unfailing love
Stronger than mountains
Deeper than oceans
Reaches to me

Your love O Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness
Reaches to the skies

speakercheck @ 2009-11-08T00:24:00

2009-11-07T16:49:23Z

Once again, I find myself staring at this verse. In this season of my life, I will trust in Him. He who was and is and who forever will be, will provide for me. He is my Provider, my Strength, my faithful Jesus. I will keep on keeping on, I will stand firm, I will believe. Yes, I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.

And so can you. :)

speakercheck @ 2009-11-07T21:43:00

2009-11-07T13:52:46Z

I often find myself in seasons like this, just feeling so tired and lethargic. In times like these, I would just not feel like doing anything that involves stepping out of my comfort zone. But I choose to forgo my tiredness and not let my feelings affect my desire to worship God.

Will you do the same? :)

speakercheck @ 2009-10-19T01:52:00

2009-10-18T17:53:15Z

I often find myself constantly struggling with my conscience. Whenever I am about to sin against God, I always realise that there is something holding me back. This little something, struggles with my soul and it just keeps on reiterating, ''Don't do it, Jasper, don't.''

Many times, we would say without any hesitation, ''I am a Christian!'' After watching this video, I'm asking myself, ''Sometimes, do I even act like one?'' What about you? Ephesians 2:8-9 says, ''For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is a gift from God - not by works, so that no one can boast.'' A gift from God, it says. Are we taking advantage of this gift that God has blessed us with? I often tell myself, ''I want to be a practising Christian - one that really lives a life that shouts the name of Jesus.'' I believe you, reading this, would probably say something along that line too, am I right? Do we really put into practice what we say we want to do? Jesus Christ went to the cross for you and I, for one simple reason - He loved us so much. We may feel insignificant, or even a nobody in this world, but where we truly belong is in Heaven, with God. There's a lyrics of a song which says, ''To live is Christ, and to die is gain. No matter what price I pay, I choose to give this life away.'' And in the video, Nate Pfiel says, ''If you want to dine with Him, you have to die to yourself.'' Let us all make a decision to step out of our comfort zones and live a Christ-like life.

Praises to God:
''Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come.'' - Revelations 4:8

''You are worthy, our Lord and God, to received glory and honour and power, for You created all things, and by Your will they were created and have their being.'' - Revelations 4:11

''You are worthy, because You were slain, and with Your blood You purchased men for God from every tribe and language and people and nation. You have made them to be a kingdom and priests to serve our God and they will reign on the earth.'' - Revelations 5:9-10

''Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honour and glory and priase! To Him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honour and glory and power forever and ever!'' - Revelations 5:12-13

You, reading this:

''May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal convenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shephered of the sheep, equip you with everything good for His will, and may He work in us what is pleasing to Him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever.'' - Hebrews 13:20

Go and change the world. (:

speakercheck @ 2009-09-29T15:31:00

2009-09-29T08:21:07Z

What is perseverance? Many people have many different opinions about it. Well, but everyone would agree that it means one simple thing; never giving up and pressing on, despite of circumstance. In this season, many of us are going through our End-of-Year Examinations and no doubt that each and everyone of us are feeling stressful. One important thing now is to press on and persevere in this final lap. More importantly, not only persevere, but persevere with God's strength. Often, in our walks with God, we often forget how much we need God and we tend to start depending on our own strength instead of His. Without God empowering us, we can do nothing. But with God, all things are possible. With God, we can conquer each and every obstacles and boundaries that comes our way. To those who are slipping away, it's time to get back. All it takes is a small step of faith, and God will do the rest.

''I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'' - Philippians 4:13

There isn't anyone who succeeded without failing even once. Perseverance is failing ninety-nine times and succeeding the hundredth. For all who are taking their End-of-Year Examinations now, or soon, keep on keeping on. Trust in God for He is faithful and He will deliver. God will be your Provision, your Provider, your Helper in the times of need.

''Perseverance allows you to get back on track when you hit a detour.'' - Catherine Pulsifer

Press on, with the strength of the Almighty One. :)

speakercheck @ 2009-08-19T23:39:00

2009-08-19T15:45:05Z

What are scars? Scars are marks that have been left by wounds. These scars also reminds us of past incidents. It leaves lasting signs of damages or pain. When everything seems to be going wrong, I always asked God, 'Why?' I just wanted to run away. I just wanted to hide. I just wanted to leave. One simple answer came back at me - Trust. I understood, at once. To trust that God has His plans for me, and His ways are higher than mine and His plans cannot be thwarted.

''O Lord Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in You.'' - Psalms 84: 12

I began to ask God to break me open. I wanted Him to tear me down into pieces, to be moulded into His image and for Him to breathe life into me. Forging strength from weakness, with all that I am. I realised that it isn't all about me, it's all about Jesus. That's when I began to let go, to let go of all my burdens and worries, to let go of all my past grudges I had towards people, to let go of all I am and surrender it back to God. And towards the people I once had grudges against, I began to love them more. Scars isn't always a bad thing. Afterall, scars make us stronger for life.

Trust God. :)

speakercheck @ 2009-07-19T19:06:00

2009-07-19T12:36:56Z

Sometimes in life, giants are prone to come way. Giants can be simple things that draws us away from God. Never sink to the ground in defeat the moment you see the giant. Rather, put on the full armour of God and be fully ready to defeat the giant. After all, with God, you can do all things.

''David said to the Philistine, ''You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. This day the Lord will hand you over to me, and I'll strike you down and cut off your head. Today I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds of the air and the beasts of the earth, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel. All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord's, and He will give all of you into our hands.'' '' - 1 Samuel 17:45-47

David, although just a sheperd boy, was used by God for things beyond his wildest imaginations. No matter how young you or I are, one thing for sure, God can still use you and I for amazing things. David was confident that the Lord was with him, and he knew the Lord will grant him victory over the giant. Most importantly, David had faith in the Lord.

With God, all things are possible, like an eagle you and I can soar. With God, the giants fall, they will rise no more. With God, you and I can overcome when fear and faith collide. There's nothing you and I can't do, really, because anything is possible with Him. There will be no mountain too high, no valley too deep. All it takes is a leap of faith.

''Oh what I would do to have the kind of strength to stand before a giant, with just a sling and a stone. Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors, shaking in their armour, wishing they'd have had the strength to stand. But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me, reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed. The giant keeps on telling me, time and time again, ''Boy, you'll never win! You'll never win!'' But the stone was just the right size to put the giant on the ground. I will soar with the wings of eagles, when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus, singing over me.'' - Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns

Conquer the giant, because you can. :)

speakercheck @ 2009-06-27T00:56:00

2009-06-26T19:46:53Z

When life seems so hard to bear, when you are on the verge of giving up, God sends us angels to encourage and motivate us. The angels that God sends can be just normal friends who randomly sends a text message saying, ''Hey, I think you've done a great job today.'' That could already be more than enough to encourage the heart. Simplicity really does go a long way. Come to think about it, God has never ever gave up on me, even in the times I gave up on Him. During the past few days, God kept on reiterating one word to me: 'Wait'. To wait on Him, no matter what circumstance I'm in. To wait on Him to pour down rain, when the season of my life seems so dry. To wait on Him, to work in my life and use it to impact others.

''The Lord is good to those who wait hopefully and expectantly for Him, to those who seeks Him.'' - Lamentations 3:25

I believe God has His reasons for whatever things He puts us through, to mould us into better Christians and train us to be able to lead a life that shouts the name of Jesus. This week, I've watched a movie which I have watched for at least six times - Facing the Giants. Each and every time I watch it, I discover something new and be reminded once again about the littlest things in life and all the commitments I made to God, for God. It taught me one life lesson: ''When your back is against the wall, when it seems there is no way out, you have to face your fears.'' With God, all things are possible. All it takes is faith.

''You can do anything that you want to do as long as you set your mind to do it.'' - Dick Hoyt

In 'Facing the Giants', Mr Bridges shared with Coach Taylor a story. Two farmers desperately needed rain, and both of them prayed for rain to fall, but only one of them went out to prepare his fields to receive the rain. Mr Bridges posted two very simple questions to Coach Taylor which hit me very strongly. Which one of the farmers trusted God? Which one are you? God will only let rain fall when He feels that you are ready for the rain. The most important thing is, you have to prepare your fields to receive the rain.

In Revelations 3, it says: ''What He opens no one can shut, and what He shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.'' I strongly believe that like what the Elders' Board has said, something has been stirring up within Riverlife Church. I have the faith that God will send an outpouring of the Holy Spirit upon the church, very soon. Let us all put on the full armour of God and storm the gates of hell with praise and triumph. With God, the giants shall fall.

Revival is coming.

speakercheck @ 2009-06-13T01:47:00

2009-06-12T17:57:42Z

Just by thinking how important I am in the eyes of God, I am really so humbled. Jesus died for you and I for one very simple reason, He loved. That is one of the greatest thing God Himself has ever created, love. And in this world, there is no greater love than God Himself, don't you think so?

''If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.'' - 1 Corinthians 13:1-3

Love is not a place to come and go as we please. It is a house we answer in, and commit to never leave. So lock the doors behind you, throw away the keys. Every single moment you have the urge to searching for the lost key, unlocking the door and leave, always remember the promise you made from the very start.

Love is a shelter in a raging storm. Love is peace in the middle of a war. And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door. No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for.

To some, love is a word that they can fall into. Well, but when they are falling out, keeping that word is a hard thing to do. Love will come to save us, if only we call. He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all.

Love is light in the middle of darkness. Love is hope in the midst of bleakness. And should we ever think of giving up, may we be reminded of the promise we made from the very start. No, love is not an empty promise, it's something worth giving your all for.

God is love. Will you, this very day, choose to stand in love, for love, with love?

''It's not about searching for love, it's realising that it has been there for all this time.'' - Mentor

Love, because He first loved.

speakercheck @ 2009-06-10T22:08:00

2009-06-10T14:51:17Z

Revolutionary Road has been a really amazing camp for me. The only phrase I could think of now to describe is 'A life-changing camp.' God has been really amazing beyond my comprehension, He is a faithful and covenant-keeping God. The sermon that impacted me the most and spoke strongly to my heart was the sermon by Senior Pastor's Wife, Jenny Lun. She spoke about understanding God's Sovereignty for His people and it was an awesome sermon.

''Sovereignty refers to God's unlimited power and that He has control over all of nature and history.''

God whispered to me during the altar call, ''I am and forever will be there for you.'' The words sung into my heart and God really revealed to me how He has been so sovereign in my life. In every circumstance, in every season of my life, in every good times, in every bad times, He has always been there. Even the times when I rejected Him, even the times when I doubted His Majesty, He was there.

Break my heart for what breaks Yours,
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause.

Pastor Joyce's sermon was entitled 'A broken willing vessel'. To be able to be used by God, we need to come to a point of brokenness in order for the Holy Spirit to work within our lives. When suffering begin to come, we need to embrace it and trust God's Sovereignty over our lives. Be willing to let God use you just the way you are and never doubt Him.

To those whom are broken within, here's to you:

In times of brokenness and when you are feeling so empty deep inside, trust God and not rely on your own understanding. God has His plans, He will deliver you.

Revolutionary Road, I will go.

Inspiring lives. Creating change. Making a difference.

speakercheck @ 2009-05-28T18:57:00

2009-05-28T10:57:43Z

When you take a leap of faith and put all you trust in God although you feel unconfident of yourself, the results would be simply amazing. One thing I know for sure, God is forever faithful. All it takes is faith as small as a mustard seed.

The God I know is a convenent-keeping God.

Here's to all:

In every circumstance, pick Jesus.

speakercheck @ 2009-05-14T00:25:00

2009-05-13T17:21:34Z

I thank God for leading me through this season of my life, a season where I was so stressed up with school. I thank God because whenever I was on the verge of giving up, He sent people to shower me with words of encouragement which enabled me to stand up once again and keep on keeping on, for God. One thing for sure, I can finally take a breather. The past two weeks has been extremely tensed but I can say that God was there, walking beside me, taking each and every step with me and He has been faithful. I thank God because in every season and in every circumstance, He lead me through and I walked on, by faith.

During my examination period, there was a particular night when I was completely listless. I took out my student handbook and flipped through. I stumbled upon a motivational statement which was so inspiring to me. It reads: ''There is no remedy for love, but to love more.'' - Thoreau. I heard a very soft whisper from God. A God-given mission, perhaps. I started thinking about those people sitting at the back of the class without anyone to talk to, those people who longed for friendship but were shunned. They were the people that were stereotyped against; others only looked at their flaws. I felt ashamed, because often, I follow the crowd to shunning them too. I told myself, I want to and I will do my best to be a friend to those people. I want to step out of my comfort zone, and reach out to the lost. I want to show them the goodness of Jesus and how He can impact lives, just as how He impacted mine. In every circumstance, I want to be able to love people, because He first loved.

I want to leave St Hilda's Secondary School able to say, ''I have completed my God-given mission.''

What about you?

speakercheck @ 2009-04-21T22:13:00

2009-04-21T14:13:50Z

During the past few weeks, whenever someone asks me ''How are you?'', the one and only phrase that would flash through my mind within a split second was ''I am stressed.'' My seniors used to say secondary 1 and 2 are also known as 'Honeymoon years'. I am sorry, I beg the differ.

Secondary 2 so far has been really stressing for me. During the weekdays, I would be completed drained out. Each and every day, I look forward to the weekends. Everytime I step into church, a sense of complete peace and calm would sink in my soul. And everytime I step out of church, I feel rejuvenated and refreshed. God has been the faithful one through it all, He has been my shelter in my times of need.

Throughout this period where I always feel stressed and tired, God is always be there. I will fail along the way, no doubt, but claming on the promise that my God Almighty will give me rest, I will keep on keeping on.

''Success is going from failure to failure without the loss of enthusiasm'' - Winston Churchill

To those who are feeling completely drained out, here is a verse for you:

''Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.'' - Matthew 11:28-30

God is forever faithful, embrace it.

speakercheck @ 2009-03-21T00:53:00

2009-03-20T17:27:52Z

These past two days, God has been really faithful. His faithfulness measures beyond words, 'cos even words cannot express how faithful is He to the world and to me. On the strong advice of Shi Yun, I took the step of faith and signed up for the Break Free seminar. The word 'seminar' already scares me so much because I know seminars are usually long and draggy. What's more the front two words are really powerful words and the true meanings of those two words are really deep and profound, in my opinion.

And once again, the Lord has left my heart ablaze and on fire.
He really does honour His promises, my faithful Abba Father.

Truth to be told, one of the main reasons I didn't wanted to go for the seminar was because the timing was really long, it was from 9am-10pm. Read carefully, many people will think it is only an hour but it is thirteen hours in a day, which means in total, it is twenty-six hours spent with the Lord. I told myself, ''No, I ain't gonna waste my time on this seminar, I have better things to do.'' And once again, He proved me wrong. Except for the occasional yawns and tiredness, I was totally captivated by the speakers 'cos the messages that were told were absolutely real. At the last hour of the first day, we were told to write letters to God. I gave my heart out in writing the letters to Him and I know He sees them. Writing down my thoughts were really soothing and it was as though you're physically telling someone of all your problems. And yes, it felt really good.

Giving You all I am,
I'm empty-handed, but alive in Your hands.

I missed out the first thirty minutes of the second day as I overslept. Nevertheless, once again, I gave my heart out to the Lord and listened attentively. You know pastors usually say something like ''First day is good, second day is better, third day is the best'' and stuffs like that? I finally understood what they meant 'cos the second day was really liberating and the Lord's presence was very tangible in the Victory Chapel during Worship, Altar Calls and Prayer Sessions.

I am a vapour in the wind,
But You still hear me when I'm calling,
And catch me when I am falling.
Who am I?
I am Yours.
I surrender all to You.

During altar calls, God has really taught me to wait on Him and listen to His still voice. The voice that is so peaceful yet soft, so hard to hear yet so easy to comprehend, so impactful yet many choose to ignore it. And even as I wait on Him, He is faithful and reveals all that He wants to be revealed to me.

And as I wait for You,
I am made more faithful.

These two days has been really defining and I'm finally beginning to understand God's revelation for me. Great, isn't it? God is good, all the time. Although I still have homework that I've not done, it's alright because I know I've spent my time wisely these past two days, in the presence of the Heavenly Father.

How wide, how deep,
How great is Your love for me.
Lord, I'm amazed by You.

speakercheck @ 2009-03-08T22:36:00

2009-03-08T14:42:49Z

Yesterday, I ended my day with a little prayer. ''Dear God, grant me peace of mind and the ability to bring your people to the heart of worship.'' Today as I led worship for cell group for the very first time, I felt it, I felt His tangible presence. I gave my heart to lead worship, I sung all out for God and did my very best. Then a little whisper was heard, something simple yet impactful was heard, ''Well done, little one.''

In Your freedom I will live,
I offer devotion.

speakercheck @ 2009-02-28T00:30:00

2009-02-27T16:50:08Z

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart.

To be really honest, this week has been a totally long and mad week for me. This week was the start of the '50 Days of Spiritual Adventure' and I've been doing my quiet time very consistently. God has been really good and He has really been answering my prayers. One thing I've learnt this week is honestly to trust in God, I seriously thought I'd do badly for my common test but He's been so good by answering my prayers and giving me good results. Sometimes I would be feeling so down for no particular reason, like there's a void in my life, but God is always there, He is always there.

Matthew 11:28-30
''Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, andn I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.''

Here is a general breakdown of my common test marks:
Mathematics - 46/50
Chinese - 41/50
Literature - 18/25
Science - 19.5/25
English 25.5/40

So, for those who actually know me quite well would know that my chinese is really bad. I almost went crazy, wait, I mean I went nuts, when my teacher gave me my results. Overall, I'm really satisfied with my results and I thank God for whatever I've got. I haven't got my Geography results yet but whatever the result is, I'll thank God for it.

It's time I call it a day.

My soul sings to my Saviour, King of Kings.
You're all that I want,
You're all that I need,
You're all that I live for in this world.

speakercheck @ 2009-02-18T22:53:00

2009-02-18T15:05:29Z

My common test is finally over. Thank God I've been able to pull through this. Sadly, the subjects I thought would be easy for me turned out to be really tough. I guess I should be asleep now, but somehow I'm on the 'Friday mode' which is the day I usually use the computer till really late. I guess I'll be sleeping after this post.

So far, my year hasn't be very good. Well, but I still believe it'd be a good year 'cos I know God's watching over me. It's 3 more days to my favourite day of the week and I'm really looking forward to it 'cos it's the time I get to talk to the person I enjoy talking to most and being in the Lord's presence.

So I'm gonna list some things I wanna thank God for..
Thank you God for those people who stand by me when I'm down.
Thank you God for those people who pick me up when I stumble.
Thank you God for those people who encourage me with their words.
Thank you God for Your unfailing love.
Thank you God for being my best listening ear.
Thank you God for leading me through my common test.
And although this year was my worst birthday ever, I thank You for it.

speakercheck @ 2009-02-03T12:04:00

2009-02-03T04:08:22Z

I thank God so much that I'm back home safe and sound. Today's cross country was rather disappointing for me. Guess what? I got 5th. Honestly, I am both disappointed and elated. The same thing happened today like last year, I vomitted 100m away from the finishing line, again. Last year it was cheese cake, this year it was milo. Hell, I'm not gonna eat anything before my cross country next year. I guess I should be grateful.

Thank you God for listening to my prayers,
Thank you God for being so good,
Thank you God for everything.

Oh shucks, I lost the gold badge I got. It slipped out of my pocket! Noo! I guess I'll have to get a replacement. Damn, there's golf today. And I'm dead beat now..

speakercheck @ 2009-01-25T00:31:00

2009-01-24T17:18:45Z

During my midnight jog, I pondered about how blessed am I with God in my life. Suddenly, the lyrics of a song sung by Brooke Fraser hit me, ''When the world has fallen out from under me, I'll be found in You.'' I was just thinking about how God has been so magnificent in my life, His Amazing Grace has been guiding me and always being there for me. I believe this year's going to be an defining year for me, it's when my faith in God will be tested. I will stand strong, I will, because I know He's always there for me whenever I need Him.

I love you, all of my hopes is in You.
Jesus Christ, take my life,
Take all of me.

Today has been a really long but enjoyable day for me. I spent my day with the bedok leaders, went for my very first leaders' cell. I thank God for my day spent with them, because I not only got to know each and everyone of them better, but I also got to hear my area overseer's heartbeat for the area. What's more was that our lunch was steamboat and it was really good, I ate so much that I didn't have to eat anything for dinner as I was so bloated. Here's the climax, after lunch, the girls went crazy. They played some music and danced to the beat. I believe everyone enjoyed it, 'cause we had a good time laughing. My day has been really crazy but I really enjoyed it, a lot.

Thank you, God.
You've been so real,
So good,
So wonderful.

speakercheck @ 2009-01-17T02:36:00

2009-01-16T18:57:40Z

Sometimes in the middle of night, like now, I'd sometimes wonder, ''How would my walk with God be without the cell supporting me? Is cell really that important?'' God certainly told me the answer today. Although it was just after a long and tiring week of school and although I've got a gargantuan ton of homework in my bag waiting for me to take them out and write some senses into them, I chose to make it a point to go for my cell's BBQ cum farewell party for the graduates.

I've always enjoyed the cell fun days and the BBQ parties that the cell has as it's always a good time to interact and get to know more my cell members even more. The girls screaming over weird games, the guys talking things that the girls would never understand, all of these brings a simple but great joy in my heart. It's really sad to see the graduates go, I think I've told each and everyone of them that I really can't bear for them to go, but I guess I've got to come to a point of understanding that all of us have to move on. I'd really miss the old guys talking nonsensical stuffs.

Now, coming to think of it, the cell has been my greatest support in my walk with God. The people that've been there everytime I needed them, the people that have been my greatest comfort without themselves even knowing it, the people who talk things that they think I'd take it as a joke but I simply don't and the people who've seen me grow.

You hold my universe,
You hold my world,
You hold my life in your hands.

God has been so good to me this year. Words can never express how good he has been to me this year. Although it's only the first month, I've come to realise how blessed I am. Thank you God, for everything. Thank you God, for my cell.

And I will bring praise,
I will bring praise,
No weapon form against me shall remain.

I will rejoice,
I will declare,
God is my victory and He lives in me.

P.S. Lately, I've been listening to a lot of songs by The Eagles. Although they are already grandfathers now, I think they are a really gifted band. I like them, a lot. Do you?

speakercheck @ 2009-01-11T21:22:00

2009-01-11T14:13:12Z

People always say Sundays are better known as Family Day. To me, it's nothing more than a day with the cell. Today, God reminded me about the people whom I hold dearest to my heart, my family. I believe God pulled away all other distractions today just so that I can spend time with my family today and to have a little taste of what a true Family Day is.

God, You alone are good, You alone are wonderful.

God shown me His miracles, once again. When I woke my dad up, to ask him to come along with me to receive my cash at the award ceremony, he reprimanded me but decided to go along after awhile. Although he slept at like 5am the previous day, he still made it a point to wake up at 9.30am just for his little boy. And yes, I was flabbergasted when he agreed to go along with me. At the award ceremony, I saw many familiar old faces. It's really such a great joy to see old friends, it simply puts a little smile on my face.

Walking up the stage to collect my certificate and my cheque was a great moment for me. I felt this small but great joy in my heart, and I thought to myself, ''Well done, Jasper. Do it again, this year, for yourself and for God.'' And yes, that is going to be my goal for this year. It was lunch with grandma after that. It has been a long time since I've saw grandma. The wide smile she gave me the moment she saw me made me feel very guilty but also elated, I haven't been visiting my grandma. Nevertheless, her wide smile made my day. I thank God for grandma, for she never fails to make me smile everytime I see her. I told myself while we were eating, ''I'm going to make grandma happy today.'' I took out some of my very own pocket money and went to buy a drink for her. And yes, I could tell she was touched. Her smile melted my heart, I felt God smiling at me that very moment saying, ''Well done, my little boy.''

And You shall be called Almighty God,
And we shall declare,
Your name is higher, higher,
Jesus Christ Your name is glorious.

When my dad and I reached home, I thought it was the end of my little family day. Once again, God proved me wrong. Dinner was with dad, my brothers, grandma and my aunt. Although it was just a simple meal, all of us enjoyed one another's presence. For one, I certainly enjoyed that simple meal with my family! Now, as I'm just reflecting on my day, there were so many wonderful smiles today and God has really blessed me abundantly today. Thank you Lord, thank you. You're simply wonderful, glorious and good.

Lead me to the cross,
Where Your love poured out.
Bring me to my knees,
Lord I lay me down.
Rid me of myself,
I belong to You.

speakercheck @ 2009-01-11T01:22:00

2009-01-10T17:26:53Z

Alright, I'm going to list down a few stupid things I did today. It isn't a lot, but here goes..

Stupid thing number 1: I wore jeans to church. Alright, I'm seriously getting pissed off with my jeans, 'cause it's getting tighter everytime it's washed. I bought it as a straight cut jeans, now it's like some skinny jeans.

Stupid thing number 2: During dinner with cell group, we ate at the grass patch in Downtown East outside D' Marqueue and I was so stupid to lie down on the grass patch which is so pricky. Now, my body's itching all over.

Stupid thing number 3: I drank a big gulp after my 4.5km midnight jog. Right after that, I needed to pass motion..

Praise the Lord! My day's getting improve tremendously tomorrow. I'll be getting cash from the Ministry of Education, yay!

Oh my, it's almost 1.30am! I better get some rest now!

speakercheck @ 2009-01-10T01:49:00

2009-01-09T17:49:58Z

It's finally the weekends and I thank God for that. I've been sleeping as early as possible this whole week, so I'm sleeping a little later as usual since it's the weekends tomorrow. As for me, I'm someone that always look forward to the weekends as I'll be having church and cell. I guess it's the only time where I can really talk to God and pour my heart to Him.

I love you, all of my hope is in You. Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of me.

The wee hours have always been the best time for me to start thinking and reminiscing. I know this is a little late but I think God has really blessed me greatly for the year 2008. Coming to think of it, I've never dreamt of acquiring the grades I've gotten, to be able to go for a mission trip to bless God's people, to be able to go for Megalife Camp once more, to have met many new friends and of course, to have started talking to old friends again. God has been truly a blessing to me for the year 2008. Somehow or rather, I believe that this year would be a greater year. It's my streaming year, I've told myself not to procrastinate anymore. I'm going all out, for Jesus. The only one that I dare say has been with me every single second of my life. The one that has been watching over my every little steps. The one that has been hearing my little prayers. The one that has watched me grow in my faith. Yes, I'm truly a son of the Saviour King.

Your name is higher, higher.
Jesus Christ, Your name is glorious.
Your name is greater, sweeter.
In all the earth, higher, higher.

Although life is unpredictable, I know I'll always have Him. Yes, I believe God's always there for me. I should get some rest soon!